I'm still Ignite.Perspire.Inspire but I've changed the focus a little.
2016 is my year to #MakeItCount I am chasing my dream to qualify for Boston, follow my journey.
Sunday, June 5, 2016
Your reflection feels like the villain right now
You’ll avoid looking at any mirror you pass. You'll divert your eyes and quickly as possible. You’ll brush your teeth with your eyes carefully focused on the sink, you will not check to see if the dress you threw on flatters your figure, or if it hugs too tightly, if it gaps at curves where you wish his fingers were touching.
Your reflection feels like the villain right now, like she will mock you for every short-coming tugging at your spine, whispering in your ear, “You always bend for the wrong people.” You don’t want to see how you look.
Plus, there’s an entire world that could eye you, could decide you are a vision and never let you forget your smile has lit up cathedrals before.
But those people aren’t him.
An entire sea, you’re still lovesick on one fish who swims in the opposite direction. You can’t hook-line-and-sink him if his heart keeps looking for her in every crowded room. Her voice has been the only thing to conduct electricity throughout his body even if you keep hoping he’ll feel the magnetism, the magic, the spark you hold in your hands.
You can’t make him love you like he loved her, like he still does.
But you don’t want rationality, to accept the only future you have together is when you fall asleep and you’re finally the girl he holds without remembering the velvet of her skin. He howls underneath a moon every night, hoping she will come back.
You stand in the distance watching, hoping one day....................